I’m really miserable

by nikol0702

I’m too scared to take my meds though. I haven’t taken them in a about a month, maybe longer. I’m terrified of building up immunity, since these are the only meds I’ve tried that have actually worked, but I feel their affects fading. I know that doesn’t make any logical sense, because surely its better to stay on them and be happier for as long as they will do, but I can’t bring myself to. I’m terrified of having to go through the search again, and dealing with side affects and crying because those ones didn’t work either when I’m so desperate to feel okay. Every time I swallow those pills, I think about how I’m building up an immunity and it makes me so anxious.