“You have nothing to be panicked about.”
I know. I know. I know. And because I know I have nothing to be panicked about, I panic even more. When I realize that my anxiety is unfounded, I panic even more because then I feel like I’m not in touch with reality.
Most of the time for me, a panic attack is irrational. Sometimes they stem from circumstances — a certain couch triggers a bad memory or being on an airplane makes you claustrophobic or a break up causes you to flip your lid — but mostly, the reasons I’m panicking are complex, hard to articulate or simply, unknown. I could tell myself all day that I have no reason to be having a panic attack and I would still be panicking. Sometimes, I become even more overwhelmed when I think my behavior is “unacceptable” (as I often believe it is when I’m panicking). I know it’s all in my mind, but my mind can be a pretty dark and scary place when it gets going.